‘Worthwhile’ – Gunfires Emulsify
A sorrow filled night,
I remember like yesterday.
August, just a year ago…
The demons won’t go away.
I knew, but didn’t know,
that you would play this game.
You did it often, but not often enough,
that I didn’t know you’d do it again.
And tonight, I cry at night,
I live in sorrow and pain.
I have to face every time,
but they won’t go away.
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
We both lay on your bed,
ready to watch a show.
A late time, almost midnight,
foolishly I didn’t know.
We started to kiss,
you said that you loved,
I gave everything,
but it would never be enough.
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
You took your clothes off,
forced me too,
but that wasn’t all you planned to do.
I carried on,
I knew it would hurt,
guess I was just like dirt.
At first I was quiet,
I did not scream,
nor like what was happening to me.
And tonight, I cry at night,
I live in sorrow and pain.
I have to face every time,
but they won’t go away.
I slapped you, said No!
And threatened to scream,
but I was afraid,
of what would happen to me.
I kept hitting,
but you grabbed my arms and said to shush,
I have to give you "what you want!”
I know you’ll class it as experimental,
it started of that way,
But I know that I said No!
And I know I felt pain.
Now I’m in a place,
where I have to wait and wait,
for news that will make me cry.
And whilst I wait,
hope that I survive.
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
I can’t sleep
I can’t smile
I can’t sleep
Will it even all be worthwhile?
Hopefully it’s all worthwhile!
